{Silver Lining....}

Morning Weight: 136
Today's Activities: Getting Caught Up After Sick Baby...

I use to be really good at always being able to find the silver lining in most situations......and I really do mean most situations.  And I was able to do this in not only my friend's situations, which is sometimes easier to do for some people.....but it was also pretty easy for me to do in  my life too. 

Well the past (more than) few years have been pretty rough on me.....and I've recently noticed that I haven't been doing this.....well I've done it a hand full of times....like in the past three or four years....and that's pretty sad.  I really do believe that when God closes a door that He opens a window somewhere....and that if we have our eyes, hearts and ears open that we can hear the wind whipsering as to which way the window is.

I also believe that during hard time if we take the time to focus on the positive and take a hard look at the things that we are thankful and greatful for that we will see how truely blessed we are.  I have had to do this on many occasions....especially when my Hubby was deployed there were times when he wasn't able to call or communicate...yes, I was scared, but I was also upset and angry....so I would make a list....a list of things I was greatful of why I loved him and what an amazing father he was ect.....I did this every night....5 things every night so that my heart wouldn't harden towards him when he didn't have much choice but to pull away from us in a difficult situation......silver lining.....

I was reading some on my blog posts and realized that yes.....I have been going through some really lame things in my life lately.....and I'm not saying that I shouldn't be able to write about them or to share them.....I'm am choosing to see those silver linings again......to focus positivly on myself again.....to not only see those silver linings in my life, but to be able to see them in me again. 
I am choosing not to write such negative things because that is really just throwing negative things out and about.....and there is already enough of that in this world.......it is time in my life again that I be positive, no matter how long it has been negative, no matter how long it took me to get here.....I AM HERE.....I am doing my best to take one step forward at a time......and this step has taken me to my sliver lining......

I wanted to thank anyone that does read this blog for putting up with my negative spewing......I have really appreicated any support and prayers that have been brought my way :-)
Luvs! <3