{Horrible Night........}

I had a crazy emotional horrible night......I'm really drianed right now, and I'm trying to find my words and figure out exactly how I feel and how to express exactly how profoudly and deeply hurt I am.......

{Still Going....}

Morning Weight: 140!

Still not working out.....but really close.....almost did this morning lol....but then had to deal with the kids......BUT I wanted to share that I was 140 this morning!  Yay me!  :-D
I can feel that I'm coming down with a cold.  :-S  Yucky....bluck....so I've got to go and get some cold medicine.....

Luvs! <3

{Stressful.....but not Quite as Much....}

Morning Weight: 141!!
Today's Activities: Couple Errands....Cleaning....& More Cleaning Still....

So far this week is going smoother than last week.  Last week was two different stressfull week senarios rolled up into one week.....talk about fun!  I tend to hold so much in emotionally especially during tough times......so of course last week I held a LOT in......so now this week as things are calming down a LITTLE......there are some things that are starting to leak out.  I also didn't do as much housework as I really needed to be doing last week to be keeping up my household.....so I'm still trying to get caught up.  I haven't started working out yet....I really want to....I just haven't had the energy or the motivation to do it yet.  I'm still just so tressed and worn out right now.  I am still loosing weight though.....and that feels amazing.....and I do still want to workout to tone....so that is a good sign.  lol 
I did hit my goal of 141 yesterday!!!!  THAT was an amazing feeling!  :-D  I also had to put a different ring on my finger cuz my other ring was falling off.  lol  And Mr T told me that he doesn't like how skinny my fingers are getting.....I don't know if I said that or not.....but it was just SOOOO funny....it was worth saying again!  lol  The things that concern a four year old!  haha
Well that's all I have for now....
Luvs! <3

{Stressfull......}

Morning Weight: 142
Today's Activities:  Playing Catch-up with Housework...

Sorry I have been MIA...this past week has been really stressfull for me.  We had a great birthday party for our son....although none of the children we had invited were able to show up...that's okay my sister ended up being in town unexpectantly with her daughter....although she is almost 1 it was nice to be able to see them.  But basically after all that settled down it has been nothing but stress for me.  I'm not going to go into details simply because everyone doesn't need to know everything that is going on in my life.....those that are closest to me know what's going on and are supporting me......and I am very greatful for that.  I haven't been working out, but I have still been watching what I'm eating and keeping somewhat track of my points....so still loosing weight.  I have definately been somewhat depressed with everything going on too.....so sometimes it's been hard to make those good food choices.....I really truely want to let my emotional eating just take over because it is just so much easier that way.....but I have worked so hard to get where I am today and I really don't want to loose all the hard work because I'm going through a hard time.
I'll check back in sometime soon.....can't garuntee when.....
Luvs! <3

{Prepping For A Birthday Party....}

Today's Activities: Lotsa Cleaning

We've been getting ready for our son's birthday party.....so I've been cleaning, and running around, and planning....etc etc etc.....lol.....I've been busy.....and MAN I have been SO SORE!!! I didn't get my workout in today.....I went to bed at a decent time last night, and set my alarm a little early but I slept RIGHT THROUGH IT!!! I couldn't believe it!!! So I wasn't able to get it in this morning. And then when I was doing my errands Jeanette called and said she was on her way to the mall at the same time I was......so I ended up hanging out with her and going to her mother-in-laws with her and eating lunch with her instead of going home and working out. EH.....I'm okay with that. I still got alot of things done today that I needed to get done today though.....and I'm so glad that I got to spend some time with my sister. :-D

Luvs! <3

{One Long Hard Day...}

Morning Weight: 145
Today's Activities: 30Day Shred=20 mins (Day2)

Lately Little Mister has been really cranky.....I'm not really sure what's going on with him.....but I do know that I haven't been able to get too much done while he's awake. So during naptime I ran like a chicken with it's head cut off getting as much done today as I possibly could. It was really hard to do.....and really hard on me!
Not really sure what's going on with me either......I know that when it's just me and Hubby and Mr T even I'm okay or even Little Mr (as long as he's not cranky) then I'm okay.....BUT when there is ANY stress.....I'm not doing okay......I seriously wanted to curl up into a ball and cry this evening. I know that I did a lot today......and that felt great.....but there is still a lot that I want to get done still.....and that stresses me out.....and having the kids not listening to me REALLY stresses me out. I'm not sure how to deal with it all right now. I'm still working on it all.
I did get up this morning though and workout! When I did my workout yesterday I sortof took it a little easy.....not completely, but I didn't really push it either. Today, though I kicked it up to the second part of the level.....well, as much as I could anyway. It was really hard.....lol.....so I'm pretty sore! lol And I'm definatley looking forward to the results! :-D

Luvs! <3

{On the Road Again.....}

Morning Weight: 145
Today's Activities: 30Day Shred=20mins (Day1)

Okay! I'm back! I have been feeling really tired & sick the past couple days with this whole stomch thing......it's getting really annoying to be quite honest. So Hubby and I went to bed really early last night and I was actually able to get up early this morning and do my workout! Yay us! :-D lol I'm still feeling sick, but at least I was able to get my workout in. That feels amazing. And my stomach is starting to feel all bloated from feeling icky too which is making some of my skinny clothes feel a little tighter.....which I am really NOT liking lol SOOO three days of not working out was just too much LOL
Well, the other day I had made up my mind to continue with the 30Day Shred. I will keep my pics from Day30 and I will keep track of my workout days in my food/activity journal and I will post my pic days and measurments on here instead of my daily Days like I was lol I'll still post....this IS still my weight loss journey and blog.....I'm just not focusing on the 30day Shred right now. I think that ya'll saw how awesome it was! lol :-D And I'll keep showing you every 10 workouts how I'm doing with it. :-D I think the biggest difference really will be my post titles and that I'm not going to use the 30Day Shred label for it anymore expect for the pics and measurments. Yupp, that's what I was trying to say. lol Goodness! Sometimes it takes me forever to say waht I'm trying to say! LOL
Well, I have lots and lots to get done today!!! :-D Getting ready for a birthday party this weekend! :-D

Luvs! <3

{So Close.....}

Morning Weight: 145!!
Today's Activities: ended up not feeling well

I'm really thinking that I'm going to keep doing the 30Day Shred workout video.....if I keep up-ing the ante every 10 days like I have been then I have another 30 days of work outs like I have already done....may it'll take me another 2 months to do them...lol....maybe not. lol I am soooo close to where I want to be......I'm really thinking that I just might be willing to get my butt kicked everyday.....even if it takes two more months to do it to get where I really want to be. And THEN I can take kind of a 'break' and do some of my more 'fun' workout dvds that I have. Ones that will more tones my stomach and thighs....like my flat belly one, and my yoga/pliates one (which I LOVE).
If I choose to continue.....I wouldn't do the Day thing on here, but I would continue to post my pics and measurments. :-) As of now I've been using the OnDemand for the workout....they have Level1 and Level2 on there, but not the Level3....but we have NetFlix, so I'm going to order it from there, and check out the Level3. Although, I know that it will scare me.....lol....cuz when I checked out Level2 just to see what it was about I almost didn't do it cuz it looked too hard. lol But I choose to push myself with each 10day section. I wanted results. And to get results you have to keep pushing yourself.....and that's exactly what I did. :-D And I am LOVIN it!!! :-D It also feels amazing to have the different toneness....I have different muscles than last time I lost weight....hence the reason I'm fitting into some of my clothes but weighing more than I was when I was fitting into those clothes. LOVIN it......have I mentioned that I'm LOVIN IT?? LOL
Another thing that has been driving me crazy is that I feel like I have NO clothes! How is it that I can have a huge walk-in closet that is about half way full of my clothes and feel like I have nothing to wear??? Well, it's because I have clothes that range in at least 15 different sizes!!! It is SO frustrating.......I have definately been purging my closet....but it doesn't help too much with the nothing to wear part. lol It does feel great though. lol At least now I can honestly say I don't have anything to wear instead of just guessing! lol And this would actually be another reason that I'd like to continue.....once I get to where I'd actually like to be.....I don't mind as much spending money on clothes for me because I know that I'm not going to be out growing them anytime soon. Then I'll actually have something to wear! LOL :-D
SO those are my thoughts on it for now. I will make up my mind tonight before I go to bed and I will set my alarm and get up in the morning for my workout.......not sure what workout it will be at this point, but I am still going to be working out. :-D

Luvs! <3

{Undecided}

Morning Weight: 146
Today's Activities: 15min ab workout, 45min yoga/pilates dvd

Tonight I went through a bunch of my clothes and tried on a lot of my older "skinny" clothes to see what fit me and what I didn't want anymore, and what I still wanted to work to get into. Before I got preggo with our last one, I was just on that line between sizes....I was just getting ready to go down another size, so some of the things I have are smaller than some other the other things I have. lol Anywho.....I was actually quite suprised to find out that even though I weigh a little more I am fitting into some of my 'smaller' clothes which was a big...nice...suprise. :-D
But this makes things run through my head......yes I have really enjoyed not feeling like I'm getting my butt kicked everyday.....yes I have enjoyed not being really sore everyday....on the other side I knew exactly what I was doing for my workout everyday, and even though the thought of it really sucked I knew that I only had to suck it up for 20mins.....that wasn't that long....20mins....and I was having awesome results for 20mins a day!
So what I think is.......I still have a bit to go to be where I really want to be.....yes there are some areas that the 30Day Shred doesn't focus on that I would like.....that's what I wanted to focus on while I was taking a break from it.....but I keep thinking that I might like to get where I want to be over all.....and THEN focus on those parts.....*shrugs*......I'm really not sure. Maybe if I throw the 30Day Shred into the mix......but then I have to plan when I do it, and make sure I do each workout when I say I'm going to do it on what day I'm going to do it......and then it starts to get complicated......and that's when I start not workingout......UGH! LOL
I'll make up my mind here soon. lol Over all I had an okay workout.....we'll see how my body feels tomorrow lol That's the real test. :-)

Luvs! <3

{Chores??}

Morning Weight: 146
Today's Activities: 10min ab workout

I got up this morning & planned on doing three of the 10 min workouts on the blast off belly fat dvd that I have.....but of coursed the kids that were up this morning had different plans. lol I was thankfully able to get in one of the 10min workouts. lol I had a dr appt this morning, and then I had some grocery shopping that I had to get done during naptime. I hadn't quite made it a priority to put the kids' school calendar up yet....silly mommy....yeah, I know.....so I was thrown off a little bit when the kids informed me that they had a FOUR day, yes I said that correctly...a FOUR day weekend this weekend. Sound fun to anyone else?? Yupp....that's what I thought too. So needless to say I wasn't exactly prepared as far as snacks etc goes for all the kids to be home for four days lol Also, my mom and her new husband are coming up for the night tonight and I had some last min things I wanted to get done around the house before they get here.
Being a stay at home wife there are a lot of things that I do around the house. I have noticed that I tend to have high expectations of myself. So I'm thinking that I might start posting what I end up doing around the house. This is not to show off or anything like that.....cuz there are plenty days that I don't do anything except feed my family lol and somedays I even have Hubby do that for me! lol It's so that when I feel like I'm not doing anything or getting anything done I can look back and realize that even if I switch the laundry or get the kids to take the garbage out that I am doing things to help the house run smoother......and that IS my 'job'.....somedays I'm able to get more done than others. lol

Luvs! <3

{ONE Day}

I have decided that I am taking today off and not doing any workouts. And this is okay. I will start something tomorrow. I honestly just don't know what it's going to be. lol I think that's the hard part. While I was doing the 30Day Shred the decision was already done, I knew what my workout for the day was going to be. Now I almost feel lost....and kinda scared that whatever I choose isn't going to give me the kind of results that I still want. I have made great a great jump in the road that I am traveling on.....the hardest part is that I'm still traveling.....as exciting as it is to look at the amazing results that I just did.....I know that I still want to loose AT LEAST 20 more pounds. And that's an AT LEAST. I would honestly love to loose 30-40 more.....but it really is a one step at a time.....I am feeling great right now....as I should be.....and just trying to figure out where to go from here to keep traveling to get where I want to be. :-)
SOOOOO.......I'm thinking that even though it will be more workout time....that I would like to try a couple different workout dvds that I have. There's a Blast Your Belly Fat one, that does a lot of standing crunches.....and that's a choose your time one....you can do 5 different 10min workouts, so I think that will be a good start since I want to focus some on my tummy (go figure).......and then I still love my yoga/pilates blend dvd that I have. And that one is a 45 min one.....But I'm sure I can figure out a schedule that I'll be able to fit these into.
I still want to shoot for a workout everyday like I was with the 30Day Shred....since I know that it doesn't actually happen in my life. lol So shooting for it is a good thing. lol And I'll try this I think for about two weeks, and if I'm not liking the results then I'll throw in some of the 30Day Shred once in a while also.....LOL.....and honestly......at this point......if that's the only way that I'm going to get the results that I want in the time that I want them......as much as I hate feeling like I'm getting my butt kicked everyday.....and being sore everyday.....and hating my workouts....and wanting to cry.....and trying to talk myself out of working out lol......I WILL keep doing it until I reach where I want to be........I WILL.......I am LOVIN how I am looking and feeling, and I want to keep it up, and I want to reach those goals. And honestly.....as close to my pre-preggo weight as I am right now, I am in better shape because I'm gaining muscle this time....and it feels absolutely amazing!!! :-D
So those are the thoughts that have been running through my head lately. lol I am going to get up in the morning like I usually do and do the Belly workout. I have a DR appt in the morning. Hubby works tomorrow night, but my Mom and her new Husband are going to be in town so I will not be working out with them in the house.....unless they are sleeping. lol
Anyways......off to spend time with MY Hubby

Luvs! <3

{Reward Shirt}

Hubby brought me out and helped me pick out a cute shirt to help me celebrate me finishing the 30Day Shred and letting me know how proud he is of me and how amazing I look. :-D

This isn't the greatest quality of photo, but you can still see the idea of the shirt and how cute it is. :-D
This is me wearing my new shirt!!! :-D I know it's not a full body shot, but that's kinda hard to do by myself! lol I do have a tripod, but I'm missing the little thingy to attach to the bottom of the camera.....I was able to do the pics I've been taking by setting the camera on the bathroom counter LOL

Luvs! <3

{Day 30!!!}

This is a look back at where I was when I started the 30day Shred.

Day1 FrontDay1 Back

Weight: 164

Measurements:

Larm: 12.5in

Rarm: 12.5in

Lthigh: 23in

Rthigh: 24in

waist: 36.5 in

hips: 40.5in

bust: 38in


I MADE IT! I MADE IT! I MADE IT! I really can't believe I have been able to do this! :-D This has been such a huge accomplishment for me!! :-D I don't even care right now that I still have a ways that I want to go.....I made it this far.....I feel GREAT! :-D

THIS IS ME NOW!!! :-D

Day30-Front

Day30-Back

Weight: 146

Measurements:

Larm: 11

Rarm: 11.5

Lthigh: 21

Rthigh: 21.5

waist:30

hips: 35

bust: 33

So for this past 10 day period I lost 6lbs and 8.5 in!! :-D Niice....very niice.... :-D

And the TOTAL loss for the 30Day Shred=

-18 Pounds

-23.5 Inches


Luvs! <3

{Day 29}

Today's Activities: 30Day Shred= 20mins

I can not even begin to tell you how excited I am that today is Day 29!!!!! I have ONE.....yes ONE day left of my 30 days of working out with the 30 Day Shred!!!! I am SO SO SO excited to not only see my results for this last 10 days, but for the whole over all of my results! I can't believe I was able to push myself this much and to stick with it for this long. I am loving how I am looking again and how I am feeling about myself......I'm sure my meds kicking in is helping a bit too...lol... :-D I have been able to get rid of a lot of my clothing because they don't fit me anymore and dig in the back of my closet for more and more of my 'skinny' clothes......and quite frankly that feels just AMAZING!!!! :-D And Hubby is complimenting me more and MORE all the time...... :-D
So hopefully I'll be posting back on here tomorrow with pics and measurements!!!! :-D

Luvs! <3

{Day 28}

Today's Activities: 30Day Shred=20 mins

BUSY BUSY BUSY

That's what the title of this post should be today.....ugh.....I have had SO much to do today. Not much really done.....well, that's not true......I did a load of laundry (just wish it had been more, I'll do another before bed), drove out our rent check, went to the mall with Hubby & babies.....Hubby got me a new shirt (on clerance ba-be!) cuz he's so proud of how much I've been doing with my weight loss.....then I drove out to Yelm and took a look at Mom's property for her....that took a while. And everything is taking longer today cuz I'm dragging my feet cuz I'm just so tired still from this weekend lol and I really just didn't sleep very well last night at all.....then of course I picked up the house some, just not as much as I need to still do or wanted to get done today, and I made dinner......but I totally cheated with that and made ramen noodles! hahaha I had a Progresso soup that was 0 pts Yummy!
I can't believe how close I am to finishing my 30 days! :-) I keep going back and forth if I want to keep going farther than the 30 days or not......I really really am tired of being so sore all the time and of getting my butt kicked everytime I do a workout.....I find myself wanting to try and talk myself out of my workout, and that's not good. lol So I keep thinking about it all. We'll see what happens. I keep remembering that no matter what I decide....that I can keep doing it, or I can always come back and do it more later.....or as my sister suggested.....I could do this workout 3 times a week and other workouts the other days.....which I really like that idea too. :-) So we'll see how I feel about it in a couple days when the time comes to decide. :-D

Luvs! <3

{Birthday Party for Our Friend's Son}

Today, we all went out to our friend's house for their little boy's 5th birthday party. It was so sweet to watch all our children play together. There were a lot more kids there than I thought were going to be there. lol but it was nice all the same. :-) A lot of people we hadn't seen in a long time, and some we hadn't seen at all.....lol.....it was a wonderful afternoon that ended a wonderful weekend. :-) And tomorrow is a busy busy day that starts off my week. :-D
I didn't end up doing my workout today, but I am so sleep deprived I'm really not worried about it......I honestly might fall asleep during it if I tried lol I ended up passing out on the couch while the kids were watching tv when I was letting Hubby take a nap and I was supposed to be making dinner.....woops.....
oh well.....there is always tomorrow!!! :-D

Luvs! <3

{Day 27}

Mornings Weight: 147!!!
Today's Activities: 30Day Shred=20 mins


We all went to the park today.....it's starting to get a little cold outside so I'm glad that we decided that to go play outside. After the park though, the Clark's needed to stop by the store before we headed home so they stopped there and we headed home.....so I ran inside and changed so that I could do my workout. lol Tommy got the kids busy so that I could do it.....it was very sweet. :-D They are leaving tomorrw, but it's also a busy day on top of that so we'll see how it ends up playing out.....besides the fact that I am also really REALLY tired. :-D lol

Luvs! <3

{Seattle Children's Museum}

Today's Activities: Walking.....Lots of Walking



Didn't get my workout done this morning.....I let myself sleep in about an hour this morning.....and ALL the kids were up already!!! I couldn't believe it! I'm not being too hard on myself.....I'm enjoying spending time with friends. I'm being semi-good about what I'm eating. I try to workout, but I'm not beating myself up if I don't. I'm not going to bed 'early' but not staying up really really late either. I'm not making myself get up with my alarm, but still getting up in the mornings so that my schedule isn't too thrown off. Overall I feel like I'm doing pretty good. :-D
We took all the kids up to Seattle today....up to the Children's Museum......we walked all over the place. And we all had a blast looking at things and the kids playing with all sorts of things.....it was over all a great day for all of us. :-D

Luvs! <3

{Day 26}

Morning Weight: 148!!!!
Today's Activities: 30Day Shred=20mins

We have some friends visiting for the weeked......we are really excited to have them over!!! I still got up thids morning even though I REALLY didn't want to get up and did my workout. I'm going to do my best to keep getting up in the morings to do my workout. I know that if I don't get up in the morning that I won't do it during the day or in the evenings......and we end up staying up pretty late visiting and hanging out.....so getting up earlier than everyone else is kinda hard.....but really really worth it. I am SOOOOOO excited that I lost TEN PUNDS this month!!! I really can't believe it!!!!! And I am very very excited to not only see how many inches that I've lost this 10Days BUT for these 30Day total! :-D My posts will prolly be short while our friends are here :-D

Luvs! <3