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Morning Weight: 138
Today's Activities:  Stil Cleanin.....

*Beware This Will Probably End Up A LONG Entry...*

SOOOOOO.....If anyone actually READS this blog or any of my blogs they have probably noticed that I have been MIA for a while now......not only have things been quite stressful in my life, but I've been pretty much an emotional wreck.  So I won't go into too too much with all the details but I really need to get some of all of this out and I figured that this would just be the best way to get it out, and to start fresh.....if that is even possible.
I feel as though my life has been turned upside down lately and that I'm back at square one with my emotions.  And that includes the way I take care of myself.....the way I eat, working out, crafting, cleaning my house, keeping up with my blogs, keeping up with the blogs I like to read, even keeping up with the tv shows I like to watch or watching movies, even keeping in touch with friends and loved ones, even cooking and baking....and the biggest one that really bothers me is spending time with my kids.  :-S  These are really REALLY starting to bother me......and very greatful that I've finally even noticed that this has been happening......and THAT is a great START.  Unfortunately isn't only a START.....because I still don't even have the motivation to do alot of these things.  Sometimes my brains starts spinning with ideas that I would like to do while I'm laying in bed before I get up, or while I'm sitting on the couch....and then I get up to start it, but I always feel  like I have to 'clean the counter off first' or 'pick up the craft room before I can start that' for some reason....and then by the time I get those things done I don't have the energy to do it anymore. 
And the kiddos......it's the same thing.....I WANT to do things with them.....and I'm in the same rut.....I plan something....but I 'want the livingroom picked up first' or 'the kitchen needs to be cleaned' or 'the toy room' you get the idea....and they always stress me out about all of it and then I just don't have the energy to keep going to get to the 'fun' part of all of it!!! 

*Well, I drafted this to come back to it, but of course I never had the time....and then like usual I lost my train of thought.  lol  So I'm going to just end it and I'll to another blog another time.....

Luvs! <3